The Green Pill Secret: Unaliving (A.K.A. Suicide)

Welcome everyone to a new episode of the Green Pill Secret, produced right here in Reston, VA. This week, we’re discussing a most series topic; a topic so fraught I can’t even call it what it is on YouTube for fear of demonetization. Mind you, the channel as it stands is about 9,990 subscribers away from ever making a single penny but I digress. (Though, if I was able to make money I could afford a guest host, so until then you’re just going to have to suffer my ugly face for the time being.

Anyway, first and foremost, if you need help, please exit this sight immediately and visit the Crisis Hotline or call 988. I am here to listen and give you a place to vent or just be a kind voice but I’m no expert and the folks at that number and url are. Seek help, please!

Now, as far as things to look forward too, I admit I love my Doctor Who and Ncuti Gatwa. And I can’t get enough of those James Webb renderings. And I’m always happy to sing George Harrison Karaoke, even if I can’t even make it to the second round of a contest. And as for this podcast, sure, I’m no Joe Rogan, but then I never was on News Radio either. Point being, I may not be the best at anything, but I just need to try and be good at some things, and not worry about how I compare to others. And you should see too that you’re unique in all your different skills and while not the master of any, you’re well equipped to be quite skilled at many! And isn’t that worth living a striving for?

So, adopt, adapt, and improve my friends and please do reach out if you need a helping hand.

The Green Pill Secret: Sapiosexuality

Welcome everyone to a new episode of the Green Pill Secret, produced right here in Reston, VA. This week we’re talking about Sapiosexuality. Simply put, today is all about it being okay to be smart! Maybe your jam is science books like The Science Book Club, which I run and am making the 2025–2026 book poll as I write this. Or, maybe you’d like to check out the Maryland Science Book Club? Or maybe the Eco Book Club.

Or, maybe you like to write, like I do, and have been running Reston Writers for 15 years. Maybe you like public speaking and would like to be a Toastmaster (that’s me in kneeling in the blue shirt)—this podcast wouldn’t even exist if it hadn’t been a challenge in my Persuasive Influencer journey. Or, maybe your jam is Cosplay. Maybe you want to read some fiction like Isaac Asimov and his Foundation series, or you read Harry Potter, Outlander, or the Murderbot Diaries. Maybe someday you might even want to read some of my fiction. Or, maybe you’d just like to get in some star gazing with my astronomy club. Maybe you just want to watch the latest Doctor Who episode with me? Or maybe you just like to make up your pretty face before a lovely Karaoke session. Whatever your number, it’s all good.

The goal of someone seeking a Sapiosexual partner is to find someone who is smart, well-rounded, and is able to talk about a variety of topics. And that’s why I consider myself a Sapiosexual. How about you?

Thank you for watching and reading as we completed our first year of podcasts. We started with friends, but in the end, we had to go it alone. Thank you for sticking with me! Here’s to another successful year!

The Green Pill Podcast: Seeing the Doctor, Part 2

Last week we brought you stories of bad Doctor visits, like to Devil’s End, Auderly House, Seaspite base, or U.N.I.T. HQ… oops, I mean stores of doctors behaving badly.

In any case, this week, we return to our conversation and discuss Cat‘s work as a Medical Performer known as a Standardized Patient. Cat and I are very proud of their work, especially if only to prevent nonetheless brilliant diagnostic physicians like Dr. Gregory House [not Holmes], living at 221 Baker Street, in apartment B, and with best friend oncologist Dr. James Wilson [not Watson].

In fact, having seen many clips on YouTube, and being a huge fan of Sir Arthur Conan Doyle‘s work, and having a subscription to Peacock, I decided to watch the entire House series. Also, as a huge fan of Blackadder, a show which Dr. House keeps on his DVR—that Dr. House is a dead ringer for Hugh Laurie from that series! Overall, I very much enjoyed the series and the rotating cast of characters, though when House goes nuts and ruins his boss’s first post-breakup date, the shark has been jumped. I mean, the takedown of the narcissistic cop in series 3 was just funny, but what happens in series 8 was just creepy. But, I won’t spoil it any more than that. It’s a fun ride and I much encourage it!

But before you start binging House, and then “A Bit” of Fry and Laurie, please check out this week’s episode!

Mid Atlantic Tesla Light Show

Next Friday, come one, come all… and bring your Tesla. Because on Friday, 18 October, at the Frederick Airport, we’re going to try and break a record. How many vehicles will we have when we record this record of this spectacular.

Still on the fence? Don’t worry, the Airport is opened for us, and we are even excited to have a special guest! None other than the Simon Pollock, the creator of the XLightShow tool for editing and authoring your very own light show scripts. I, for one, want to make a Doctor Who script but I’ve not had the time and it’s hard to do when you’re developing on Floor 15, and your Tesla is in basement parking.

All we ask is that you pre-register your vehicle, and come with your Tesla software up to date.

You can register here!

Schedule:

  • 17:00–17:45 Earlybird Gathering as Spaceships Wraps
  • 18:00: Start arriving at Airport
  • 19:30: Showtime!

The Green Pill Secret: Convention Roundtable, Part 2

In the second part of our Convention Roundtable, we go through how we all got here. We begin by embarrassing Gracie by talking about how she grew up on the convention circuit. Lawrence Neals then talks about his convention experience and what it’s like now with money. Then Alex Boruff chimes in with how much fun he has coming to these conventions. Cat tells us all about how she got into the convention scene. And finally, I talk about how my Mom was part of the Mark Twain Masquers and how I went to conventions at a young age in both Connecticut and Montréal, and then founded the Northern Virginia Doctor Who Viewing Society in 1999, then did a bunch of Electric Car events and got into cosplay—beginning with Ian Chesterton, and most recently in a Fuck Yeah!, complete with Pornstashe—and finally back into the Doctor Who conventions with the Convention which shall not be named, where I met Cat and eventually started attending L.I. Who.

As before, the audio quality is frankly atrocious. I’ve done my best to clean it up but me thinks short of magical computer code, this is the best I can do. I think I’ve boosted the audio of our guests as best I can and since even I find them still relatively unintelligible, even subtitles are out of the question.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy the special crawl at the beginning to bring you up to speed, and may the Force Be With You, until next time!

The Green Pill Podcast: Compliments

This week is all about saying nice things. Compliments are a great way to break the ice and I can’t say enough how hearing one from a nice woman is near and dear to my heart. But be mindful of what compliments you deal out. And my thanks to my absent co-host Cat for being a partial inspiration for this episode!

Put simply, avoid compliments about what someone is, an intrinsic feature of their body, and focus on compliments which are about what they have or choose. Nobody, after all, wants to be a sexual object, and there’s no greater compliment than one about the person inside the body you may desire. After all, I can’t help my nose from being my nose. Whether it be a pair of boots, a tattoo you have, or a pin you’re wearing.

After all, if you tell me you like Doctor Who, you’re in. And if you tell me you like Firefly or MST3K, you’re very in because those shows are no longer being even made as they were. And please don’t hate on me because of Joss Whedon; I don’t support his actions any more than as a Tesla driver I support Elon Musk. I just like the show; I just like the car.

In any case, I hope you all are well, because… you are all wonderful people my intrepid readers. I can’t compliment y’all enough!

The Green Pill Podcast: Conventions

Folks, this week I had to record a solo episode as Cat was pretty busy with their convention prep and rather than trying to shoe in an episode for our regular spot, we decided to instead see if we could do a live episode Sunday at 15:00 if we both feel up to it. Not saying we will, but you know how conventions are—or maybe you don’t—but they tend to wear you out!

What? You’ve never been to a convention? Well, don’t be shy, as that’s what I’ll be discussing in this week’s episode. Maybe you’ve never been to a convention—like the Doctor Who convention I’m currently attending—perhaps because there are none of your interest in your area. Don’t let that get you down because even informal conventions, like a basic meetup, can help you get out there and make new friends… and even potentially meet someone.

I know most of us who don’t already have someone special, are out there hoping to find love. There’s nothing wrong with that. You shouldn’t feel ashamed either that you have those desires or are unable to satisfy them. Even if your room is next to a happy couple enjoying each other heavily, intimately while you’re trying to record a podcast, don’t be jealous, be happy that, while they probably were once in your position, they found each other and you could find someone too.

Of course, we can’t know where you will find that special someone, and you should never put all your eggs in one basket. Sure, it may seem like there are a lot of opportunities on dating apps, and I did have one wonderful, long-term (6 months) relationship thanks to one of them, but there’s something to be said about meeting organically, through a convention or a meetup.

So get out there, and I hope you enjoy this week’s episode. And if you’re at Long Island Who, come see me at the Is Doctor Too Woke panel at 14:00, or Cat at one of their many panels!

To Sleep, perchance to dream

Last year, I read the book Outlive by Peter Attia, MD in my Science Book Club, and although it is cliché, this book did indeed change my life. The TLDR is simply this: to live a healthy you need four pillars of living today to be ready for tomorrow: improved strength, good balance, cardiovascular improvements, and sleep! I have 10 lb / 4.5 kg weights I need to start pumping one of these days for strength. I need to do more yoga, like Saturdays at 11:00 in my apartment, but alas that’s during my Saturday Morning Review. But, for cardio, I climb all 15 flights every time I leave my apartment, typically at lease once a day, and have made a rule to never take the elevator up when I can find the staircase (though I do take it down).

As for sleep, I am epicly failing and it’s really getting to me. But, to fully lay this story out, let’s go back to March of 2024.

Eclipse Planning

I had been planning for the 2024 eclipse for years. I even wrote a presentation about it which I shared with my Toastmasters and Westminster Astronomy Society, Inc (WASI). In it, I talk about how back in 2023 I tried to get a hotel room on Lake Buchanan in Texas, and wasn’t able, but found this state park, right in the centerline of the Eclipse path, in the driest part of the county, just outside of Austin, TX. I worked out with my new job at CACI (which, BTW, is one of the best jobs I’ve ever had and a wonderful place to work and will always be my scheduling priority) that I could change my work location to Austin for the first two weeks of April 2024, and then booked a hotel in Cedar Park so that I would be close to work (actually two hotels were books and I only chose which one I would stay at in March), and got a TxTag so I could use the toll roads around Austin.

I spent March giving that presentation, scheduling a month of Green Pill Podcast episodes and posts (so I wouldn’t have to deal with them in Austin) and cleared my calendar for those two week, only allowing the most important commitments to bother me on my working-vacation. Since I was doing this myself, I used my own money to stay at the hotels, and wishing for adventure, I decided to take #NoSO2TeslaP三D down. (Fortunately, FSD (Supervised) V12 dropped just before I left.) And, I checked my Doctor Who watch log and prepared to watch the mostly missing The Mythmakers on the way there, The Dalek Masterplan while in Austin, and The Massacre of St Bartholomew’s Eve on the way back. My dad contacted me about borrowing his DJI Camera and I scheduled to pick it up two days before I left, the same day I tried to help a pregnant camper with the Green Cab group I’m a part of—which didn’t work out because I just couldn’t pick up the camera and get to the patient in time.

I put in my contacts and readied myself for the long drive.

Driving to Austin

I got up at 03:00 to watch my daily Doctor Who, and left at 04:00 on Friday, March 29. On the way, I attended many work meeting en route and nearly killing my hotspot fast-speed limit on the way. I first hit the Raphine, VA supercharger around 06:30, well before work began. Then, I drove to Atkins, VA, leaving around 10:30, and got my work computer set up for my work meetings. Around noon CDT—I’d crossed the time zone—there was some serious stop-and-go traffic on I40, in Kodak, TN, just outside of Knoxville, and I got rear-ended by an uninsured driver who didn’t leave me his name—I still have to get this fixed. I pulled into the Knoxville, TN supercharger about a half-hour later. I then attended the rest of my work meetings before arriving at Nashville/Charlotte, TN around 15:30, made it to Jackson, TN around 18:00. From there, I was lucky the Brinkley, AR was next to a hotel so I was able to sleep for 6 hours after charging my car to 100%.

I got back on the road around 04:00, arriving in Little Rock, AR around 05:00 with about 60%. I then hit Nash, AR before finally hitting Nash, TX, just outside Texarkana, around 07:15. I then drove a bit west of Dallas to the Royse City, TX supercharger at a Buc-ee’s, arriving around 09:45. I hit Abbott, TX around noon. Because I made such good time, and was looking to get to the hotel before check-in, I decided to instead head toward the Lake Buchanan park to scope it out for Eclipse photos, posting photos to instagram without revealing my location to keep it from being swarmed—and allow me to change my mind. Finally, I made it to the Cedar Park Supercharger, queued for a charge, and checked into my hotel around 17:30.

Working Vacation in Austin

Fortunately, I was able to cancel all my Saturday Morning Review meetings on transit days, committed to on the second Sunday morning there (the first Sunday was Easter and I just spent the day doing touristy things) and on my trip back to The Hourlings, attended my Reston Writers over Zoom (including one on the highway coming back from the Eclipse), attended my EVA/DC board meeting, my WASI meeting, a regularly scheduled Toastmasters meeting, and the Division E Toastmasters Evaluation Contest! I really didn’t want to participate in that while I was on vacation but I kind of fell into it by winning in March, so my Saturday morning before the Eclipse was toast. And that is, for me, a paired down commitment. I wanted to spend as much time as I could in Austin and focus on that, and not worry about what I would deal with when I got back, just in time to run the Science Book Club meeting in person. And I had to wash my car, twice.

I’m not going to talk about my actual eclipse experience here, just that I was not able to view the bats under the Congress Bridge in Austin and the Toastmasters contest and Testing the DJI Camera with a solar filter—which I hadn’t had a chance to test until that point—as well as getting enough charge for my ride, meant I really wasn’t able to do any tourism the weekend before the eclipse, and I was exhausted. But, I did get a call from our Toastmasters Area New Club Director about starting a club at CACI. Unfortunately, my reading glasses broke, the lens fell out, and I had to replace them, looking in H.E.B. and Walmart. I spent about a half-an-hour on the phone while I selected a pair I really liked for about $30.

I spend my last days in Austin meeting some of my awesome Austin colleagues, and attending drinks with the head of the office that Friday night, causing me to go to bed late.

Returning to Virginia

I got up at 03:00 on Saturday, 13 April, watched my daily Doctor Who, finished my Orange Juice, and hit the road around 04:30. I was too tired to take pictures at my first charging stop in Corsicana, TX, driving through the back roads of Texas. But I did get photos in Sulphur Springs, TX, in Hope, AR, in Little Rock, AR (again), in Memphis/Germantown, TN, in Dickson, TN, in Nashville/Charlotte, TN (again), and stopped at the Crossville Buc-ee’s. Unfortunately, the last stop was at a buc-ee’s and because I have mean old Tesla Insurance, it was 22:00, and I couldn’t drive anymore and had to sleep in my vehicle. My air mattress didn’t properly inflate for the first hour but, around 01:00 I hit the head in Buc-ee’s and got it properly inflated, getting a net of about 5 sleep before hitting the road again at 04:00.

I crossed the timezone and made it to Bristol, VA, at a lovely Royal Farms, right on the Tennessee border, around 07:30, just as the sun was rising. The sun looked amazing as I drove up I81 but when I got to Washington County, VA, I got my first speeding ticket in over a decade, all while going the same speed as the traffic around me. I guess the county is short on cash. Anyway, that delayed me arriving at the Sheetz station in Salem, VA, where I was subsequently late setting up the Hourlings Zoom, burning through the last of my hotspot bandwidth before they throttled me because the Sheetz wifi didn’t work. I got pulled over one more time outside of Salem because I accidently breezed passed a cop on FSD but I apologized as I didn’t get to the car and override in time, and he forgave me. Best cop ever! I’m glad he was safe. I then made it to the Mt. Jackson, VA supercharger around 14:45, which I had previously visited on my trip down Shenandoah National Park last Autumn—I was almost home! I didn’t have time to take a much needed shower, but I did have time to get to the car wash before attending my 17:00 meeting at the Panera. I finally had my shower when I got home, and I slept—fitfully.

A Killer Workweek

The main problem with not getting enough sleep is my productivity drops off. Combine that with 2 days of driving and looking at my calendar and seeing events not just 2 days the following week, not just 3 days. Not even 4 days, but 5 days, one every day of the week leading up to Earth Day and that weekend before Earth Day being chocablock with events too, about 3 per day! Combine that with 43 hours of work and you can see why I’m very frazzled.

My first day at work I did my best to move to my new cube (we moved cubes the day I got back) and was so tired, when I tried to recycle my soda and sandwich bag, I had the soda and my glasses in one hand and the sandwich back in the other, intending to recycle the soda and the bag but forgetting the glasses were in my hand too. When I tossed the soda bottle and everything else in my hand, I was confused to see the bag in my other hand. I stared at the trash, wondering what else was in that hand if not the sandwich bag. When I got home, I realized it was my reading glasses. I had to rush home to run Reston Writers’ Review, and I started cursing abominably because I was late and I needed my glasses to read the pieces and write my notes. I met one of my writers in the lobby and he tried to calm me down, but I had to trudge all the way up to my apartment, fetch my old, cellophane taped glasses to run the meeting. I then had to drive back to work, dig through trash, unsuccessfully, and then buy a cheap replacement in Walmart, driving home past the high insurance 22:00 point! That was just day one!?

The rest of the week wasn’t much better. Tuesday, I drove to Columbia for the April Tesla Tuesdays. Wednesday I met with my therapist, missing about half of a work meeting because I couldn’t get sound to work in the car, then drove to the EVA/DC monthly meeting. On Thursday I had Toastmasters, where I was the General Evaluator. And on Friday, I drove down to Regency Furniture Stadium for a secret Tesla event! Meanwhile, at work, my branch had gone out of sync with the main branch, and I had to soft reset it to get it back in sync, but when I did, I forgot to copy all my old commit messages, which had all my notes from my work up until that point. Again, I need sleep because my productivity sinks when I’m tired.

Insane Weekend

Next, I look at my weekend schedule for the first time because, when could I have looked at it sooner. I had a Tesla event in at the Starr Brewery at The Perch (to see a CyberTruck but I saw one in Texarkana so I was good), another in Clarksville Common, and a cosplay event in Ellicott City. I decided to attend all three but I screwed up royally because I forgot to pay for and get a ticket to the Cosplay event, and didn’t check the web page for where the munchie squad would be so I ended up crashing, uninvited, and almost got kicked out of the group which I had been one of the founding members. And thus, I wasn’t able to obtain any photos of that event. And that was just Saturday.

One Sunday, I had a writing seminar with The Hourlings, and then an event in Herndon to promote vegan and sustainable living. I attended the last two hours of the Herndon event, since I was double-booked, then went home for the movie discussion with the Maryland Science Book Club. I was going to meet my friend Lisa that evening but, since she was organizing a very important event taking place today, which I sadly can’t make because of work, we agreed that we were both too busy to make that happen. But, I hope to see her Saturday!

Overscheduling and Undersleeping

Needless to say I was even more exhausted after all that and was happy to cancel the Monday night Reston Writers meeting, quite sleepless, even forgetting my daily weigh-in! I went from a week where every day I had an event to a week where I only had one evening event. Bliss? No, because I have fallen behind with my work and my boss has noticed and put me on warning in our quarterly touchpoints. This is very not good. So, I’m going to shut up now, and get back to work because nothing, but nothing, right now, in my life is more important to me than my job!

My therapist sent my an article which exemplifies my conundrum: How to Stop Overscheduling Yourself.

Take care gentle reader and remember, tomorrow is another day, and another chance to get a good night’s sleep!

The Green Pill Podcast: Finding Your Tribe

Those who know about me know that I have many, many interests. Indeed, that’s why I have so many different categories on this blog, where I focus on one, particular tribe I feel a close part of.

A couple of those tribes I share with my co-host Cat Smith, one being our shared love of just jamming on our instruments, but also we became acquainted because of Doctor Who fandom. We met at the convention which shall not be named and became good friends over our shared passions.

My regular readers no doubt remember, I’m rewatching the entire series—at the time of this episode’s premier, I’m watching William Hartnell‘s The Ark part 2, The Plague. (Yeah, plague, haven’t we had enough of that—predicting SARS-CoV-13, I think I called it on last watch).

All that said, Cat and I decided to show some of our other passions in this one. Cat is a fan of Avatar: The Last Airbender, a wonderful show about a young warrior learning of his amazing powers, though that certainly doesn’t do this engaging tale justice.

Meanwhile, lacking proper wig tape, I attempted to cosplay Greg Universe, Steven’s dad from Steven Universe. I quite enjoyed this series and was lucky enough some years ago to meet the creator, Rebecca Sugar where I got this cherished selfie at the Small Press Expo in Bethesda. Unfortunately, as you can see in the video, my unsecured wig kept slipping, so I kept having to readjust it.

Please enjoy our latest episode and please tell us about your tribes!

The Music of Tristram Cary

For once, I wish to channel my musical esthetics and talk about one of the absolute most sought-after albums I have ever pined for. Which is to say, when it was released I was just starting a new job and on a tight budget, but by the time I’d established myself, it was already grossly out of print.


To be sure, as a musician, I don’t know if I could ever play any of Tristram Cary‘s music, but like Delia Derbyshire, I find the kind of organic sound they used in the mid 1960s was unique and something I’d love to try. I would love to have high-fidelity digital tape loops of ordinary, everyday sounds.

Cary’s music was itself bombastic and brutal in a fresh, naturally bassal way. I was reminded of this, but didn’t have a chance to cover it, during my discussion of Doctor Who: The Ark. The Ark is filled with the classic themes and tones from Cary’s earlier work on The Daleks. Cary actually contributed music to a number of Doctor Who stories during the Hartnell era of the show, as well as in the early 1970s with the Pertwee story, The Mutants.

The album is so rare, it often goes for, from $80–$130, which is well beyond my price range. Especially considering it originally retailed for about a quarter of that. It’s not that I don’t think it’s worth it, but it’s not the media I care about, it’s the music and surely if it was just a digital copy of the music, it could be re-released as streaming for little to no cost, and thus all profit to the Cary estate.

Tristram Cary died in 2008, so he was around when the album was released. I can only assume he was happy with it. I hope he would want more people to hear it, but I am hesitant to look into the grey recesses of the Internet to procure his music. I want so badly to buy a legal copy. I just wish I could get it for a fair price.

But that music, it’s just, so, good!

Doctor Who: Devils' Planets: The Music of Tristram Cary
This is the long sought after, albeit maybe only by me, album of the amazing Tristram Cary’s music. Cary was one of the major incidental musicians of the Hartnell era, from The Daleks to the Ark and even the Pertwee story, The Mutants. © 2020, BBC Music